Thursday, December 16, 2010

One Way

It seems like everything we have, we have a one way version. One way roads, one way mirrors, and a good amount of other things. But there is one thing that it's never good to have, one way friendships. You feel like your putting so much time and effort in, but, you never see the fruits of your labor. But sometimes you have to realize, sometimes the sweetest rewards are the ones you can't see, sometimes you just have to trust that the good deeds you do will come back around in the long run.

I have a friend. She listened when I was going through rough times in my life. She was always there, she's the reason I'm here writing this. But she often felt like she was getting nowhere, like she was getting nothing back, like she was in a one way friendship. When she told me that, I hated everything about what I had done. How could I be so stupid? How could I just sit back and not care about the needs of the person responsible for pulling me out of my own personal hell? How could she eveer forgive what I had done?

Reconciliation is a hard thing to come by.

I owe her everything, I would do anything for her. My only prayer is that she will understand this, and know that whenever she needs something, I will be there for her. I know she may never forgive what I've done. I remember a similar relationship I was in, and I still have trouble moving on. After all, I gave up a lot for that person, shouldn't I get something back?

It's been my experience that God makes everything happen for a reason. Perhaps this former relationship of mine happened so that I could know what I was putting her through? I may never know exactly why. I only know that I will do anything for my friends, and she redefined what friend is.

a person whom one knows and with whom one has a bond of mutual affection, typically exclusive of sexual or family relations.

Someone who takes the time to listen and try to understand. A person who will pound on stone walls with their fists tbreaking you out from the prison you have built around yourself, and who rejoices at sight of your every smile.

Thank you, I will always be there when you need me, because you were there when my nights were dark.

"The night is always darkest right before the dawn" -The Dark Knight

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