I made a big mistake this week, I wanted something. A lot.
Now, that isn't a mistake, everyone wants and deserves the same thing I do.
My mistake was that I wanted it on my time.
A basic concept that I haven't grasped yet is that life isn't about things happening on my time, life is about things happening on God's time.
Everything happens exactly when God wants it to, I have trouble remembering this sometimes. The past week has been really hard for me, and so I just wanted this, thinking it would make it easier. Instead it just made it harder, and now I have to live knowing I messed up again.
I'll find this whenever God says I'm supposed to. Not a minute before, and not a minute after.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)
i am second, because i'm putting I AM first.